Hello, and welcome to my blog space. I am nothing special; I am as stupid and lazy as the rest of you. I like to preach, but I don’t like to follow. I like to complain, but I don’t like to take action. Why is this, I wonder?
I am not particularly gifted, although, like you, I think I am. There are a million mes out there; trying desperately to make sense to the right people. But it’s all utterly in vain! Nothing matters other than your own relationship with yourself. I do not intend to share these blogs with anyone; unless you stumble upon them on your own endeavors, you will never know these exist, nor should you! But in my usual form, I will most likely change my mind in the future, bribed by my ego to reach out for much desired attention. These blogs are as meaningless as ninety percent of the content of the worldwide web. From the bad grammar and punctuation, to the bad spelling and rambling, incoherent thoughts, it’s all merely an attempt by me to talk to myself – my consciousness needs to bypass my ego. I need to see the truth! My ego only knows what’s happened, only draws from my past experiences, whereas, consciousness knows what is to come. It’s a feeling deep inside, in the core of my being, that tells me where I need to be. It shows me the truth, even when I’m running from it, or surrounding myself with distractions that support my denial. You are right! You are the one who knows best.
I have been away from home for seven months now. It seems a lot shorter. I am shocked by how quickly I have been forgotten, how quickly people have moved on. I am hurt by the fact that people I thought were close friends simply stopped replying to me – if they ever even replied to me at all. It’s like I ceased to exist the instant I left Ireland. It showed me who my real, honest-to-God friends are, and I don’t have as many as I thought. Maybe it was just ego, but I was hurt.
Inspired by my lack of impact on the people that I knew best, I have decided to compile a list of fragmented thoughts, bundle them into meaningless and chaotic Blogs, and force them down the throat of the internet with the rest of the utterly useless and pointless attempts at real contact. Why isn’t SETI looking for intelligent life on this planet?! You never know, they may find a handful worth talking to(I do not include myself among those).
Well, there you go! That’s my first blog on this new site. I hope I have the strength of character to keep this to myself; keep it as my own online diary of shame and momentarily idealistic musings. Please, let me keep this to myself! Let me keep one secret.
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